on the road again

i cant believe how fast summer is going, it is hitting me like a whirlwind of everything my summer has in it. let me start off by saying that i have not been on vacation at all. and (excuse my french) it totally sucks! along with that my sister has been away at camp for a month and today i am headed on a train (like right now) to go get her from camp! i am so overjoyed to see her, but iwont even be there a full twenty four hours, it is literally so far for such a short amount of time. but since she is my sister and i love her, i would do anything for her. not gonna lie, i feel like i am going to cry right now, but i cant because im on a train and my mascara will run and people will think im a psycho. work is crazy, rehearsal is crazier, my life in general is jsut way too crazy to handle. i wish life had breaks. i wish i could sit back and do nothing, just a day to filter everything. just reminding myself three more weeks until everything is simmered down and brought back to normal summer days. i also want to say srry if i lack in posts, but i am trying to post ahead of time and then set it to post later in the week because i am working early mornings (some later afternoons/nights) and rehearsals. i want to keep posting as much as i can and post to youtube as much as i can. the best i can do is try. right?

firework

this week so far has been the biggest emotional roller coaster i have been on the whole summer, the sad part is that it is only wednesday. i have gone through so much stuff during these pat few days but lately i am feeling upset because i try so hard and always give my all in everything i do and i feel as if i do not get noticed and sometimes i feel that my effort is not enough. my iphone was on shuffle in the car last night and my girl katy perry was surrounding my ears with her angelic voice and music. my favorite song : firework was playing.now, normally i do not have a favorite song because i literally love music too much to pick a favorite, but after soaking in the song, the rhythm and the lyrics i realized that this song was not only my favorite, but it was so moving and motivating. dissecting each line but i will tell you my summary of the song as a whole piece.  katy's meaning in this song (to me, personally) is that no matter how you feel, invisible, alone, scared, tired, you always have to keep trying and you will shine at the end of it all. you are a diamond in the rough and you need to show everyone what you've got and what you can do for everyone. people have to learn to ignight their inner self and feel comfortable with what they are and who they are. a firework is a beautiful substance that glows bright and goes out with a bang; katy tells her fans that that is what they should be doing and thinking like.

i know that i am so talented and caring and giving,  and from now on instead of looking at things from a downside, slum perspective.  i am powerful. i am passionate. i am positive. i am a firework. are you?  

gotta keep going.

ughhh. im so tired. so exhausted. so drained.  i have no clue why, well yeah i kinda sorta do... i woke up this moning at 6:26  (yes on the dot, right before my first alarm)  and i was so exicted for work and woohooed out, i was going to go to starbucks, but my mom was like, no there is gonna be a line.... sooooo i didnt. i just went straight to the pool at around :55 and got there at 7ishh. i was so happy at practice, so energetic and enthusiastic. then in the middle of it i got a slump. i thought of everything i had to do, and it was too, like wayy too overwhelming UGH even thinking about it makes me stressed.  all i wanted to do today was sleep and just relax. but nope, when i got home my dad made a list of things for me to do during the day on my qoq (quote on quote) day off... so much of a day off. i was off to the dry cleaners, to the grocery store, to the post office, to the bank, to just about anywhere and everywhere. if you think of a place, trust me i was there today. then as soon as i could tell it was five and i was headed home (finally) only to go straight back out to rehearsal. at home i packed a snack (some fresh raspberries and green grapes) and tons of water. then it was finally time for rehearsal!  not gonna lie i have been waiting for this day for like a month... haha and it was as good as i thought it was going to be!! exept it was hotter, seemed longer and had more moving around then i expected.  wait who am i kidding our choreographer is so intesnse it scares me, but i love her! but i mean we have another month and there is so much to do in so little time. just gotta keep the faith and gotta keep going. tomorrow is a new day, and the start of my job in new york city. its going to be a long wild day. but i decided instead of looking at things and complaining, from now on i will just smile and remind myself that i am here. thank god i am alive and have a new opportunity everyday. if you think about it, everyday is like a new page in a book, every month is a chapter and every year is a story. how do you want your story to be told? 
live your life to the fullest of its extent and be greatful for the adventures and opportunities we have. 

graduation part II : realization

after my sister came home from her moving up party tonight, we finally had a tv sister bonding moment. (that i will document and never forget.) we talked about her middle school experience, about her peers, this upcoming summer and of corse her future plans in high school!  as she pulled out her yearbook to show me everything, all of the pages and her autographs, i started to wonder what happened to my eighth grade yearbook. i know going back on middle school memories is not something i will ever look forward to, but after looking up in my bookshelf i finally found it.  five years ago i graduated from middle school. that so scary, i'm not sure wether to call myself young or old haha. but i did it, a day i will never forget. i crossed the stage in my new beautiful dress and shook the principle's hand for my eighth grade diploma. along with my diploma i got my yearbook (finally back to it) opening the pages of this ancient book was like opening an old photo album, one you weren't sure if your would tear out the pages or laugh. i smiled. i read all of my goodbyes from my friends in middle school and surprisingly i had a lot of goodbyes, tons of HAGS and many thank you's.  after browsing through that i went back and looked at my eighth grade photo. oh my gosh, for starters :     dear old lindsey,  thank god you learned how to curl your hair & that you dont have a brace face anymore! oh boy were these pictures crazy, even of everyone else, seeing them just made me think of their stereotypes. sadly, but truly everyone has a stereotype; some you make of your own, others you are put under. this was a thought that came up in my head as my sister and her friends graduated today. honestly i think that no matter what there will always be: a theatre diva, a tough guy gang, some freaks, some geeks, hipsters, musicians, fake girls, spoiled brats, wanna-be's, artsy people, a guy who scared to show his other side, a shy girl, a model, a rich kid, a fashionista, and so many more. 

(me ready for my eighth grade graduation...#killme) it is scary to see the repeat of the cycle, but its just the circle of high school life.  **to those of you out there who do not know who you are in the world, or what your stereotype is. dont worry, you carve your own path, trust me when i say that you will get there soon, just do not be someone who you are not, be yourself.**   congrats to all graduating classes of 2O13, but especially to the BMS Class Of 2O13 & of corse to my  beautiful sister jenna . love you bitsa .

summer's last lazy week

lately i have been feeling as if i am getting off track with everything in my life. summer is crazy, and i just realized yesterday that my only time for real "vacation" is july 4th. that is beyond crazy! i know that i have to work, and i love it! swim coaching is so much fun, love my swimmers to death!!  but honestly here is what my summer consists of:
swim team, lifeguarding, working in nyc during the day, suessical rehersals at night, blogging, youtubing, pintresting, garage sales, babysitting, organizing, moving, packing, regrouping, shows in july, lake george family week reunion, baithing suits, fireworks, beaches, lane lines, and jazz shoes. if that isn't enough i am not sure what is! i know it seems as though i am complaing, but i am not. trust me on this one. this post is meerley for myself to realize what i have on my plate this summer and what portions i can divide out to benefit myself and others. along with work, and shows, i have a blog and youtube to keep up with, but above all i have emotions to keep in tact and to not forget or let go of.

this week is my last week before my crazy summer life starts. im so nervous, im not going to lie, im actually scared. and i can already feel how tired i am going to be, but bring it on! bring on the heat, bring on the sweat, the fashionable clothes, the money, the singing, the swimming and the blogging.

what's on my iphone

recently, alanna has just done a blog post that inspired me. she recently posted what's on my iphone. this has been a trending tag that has been buzzing around youtube, so i decided to share with y'all what is on my iphone and what apps i use on a daily basis.

 homepage:  my background : a photo i took of my my may lilly pulizer agenda page my apps : messages - photos - videos - camera - calendar - maps -weather - utilities - contacts - newsstand - itunes - app store - clock - settings 

utilities bucket: my apps : notes - reminders - calculator - compass - *emojicons - stocks - voice memos - **flashlight - game center - passbook - find iphond *emojicons are the best thing that there is on an iphone. they are basically the icons that people use such as a smily face, kissy face, food icons, sports and more **flashlight comes in handy just about 24/7, it is a working compass & flashlight with 10 differnt settings

second page : my apps : instagram - facebook - twitter - tumblr - blogger - lindsey bucket - games bucket - media bucket - *qr reader  * the qr reader is good for any qr code, which now a day is pretty much located on anything!

lindsey bucket :  my apps : pintrest - *primp - snap chat - **sleep cycle - spottily - groupon - vine - ***shazam - picstitch  *primp is an app that i was introduced by alexanderaaxo on youtube, it is basically an online makeup app reviewer. you can scan just about anything and a review of the product will come up ** sleep cycle is an app that i have used in the past to track my sleeping habits, it is very useful and i love to see everday's results ***shazam is an app that is a music and lyrical finder. i was once in the store and a song was playing, so i whipped out shazam and pressed the button and it linked me to the song on iTunes!! its a must have

who am i

when i was in high school i never thought i would have my feet in a pair of sperry's or jack rodgers. well four years later, one pair of jack rodgers later and a bunch of sperry's later here i am. just recently i have had my preppy vein take over my whole system, slowly crawling towards my wardrobe.  after cleaning out my closet, i noticed that i have had a bunch of new button up shirts, colored shorts/pants that are all pressed and ready for the summer season! when defining preppy a person thinks of a bubbly, upbeat person who is involved in preppy sports (golf, tennis & etc), who is obsessed with shopping in preppy stores (vineyard vines, lilly pulitzer, southern prep & so on). i personally do not fufill that definition at all, but i do enjoy those stores, dont like the sports... so what does that make me?
truthfully here is what i am: an artsy girl on the inside, a preppy girl on the outside, a youtuber, a blogger, an artist, a shopaholic, a babysitter, a swim coach, a female, a student, a daughter, a sister and well im just lindsey.